You're somebody reason to smile

This scar never gone.. They just hide.. Sometimes they disappear sometimes they show their face.. I'm okay.. I always pretend it.. I AM OKAY.. Today.. At half 6pm, i remember it.. Remember the memories that i want to forget.. Suddenly, i see the scar, and i feel it.. It's horrible, you know.. I'm pity him and dont know what to do.. Dont know what to feel.. JUst dont know.. Dont cry.. Dont cry.. But i cant hold my tears.. Please just live a happy life and stay away from my mind.. I believe we can live happily forever, seperately ..

Kisahnya seperti ini.. Memang aku salah karena tak tegas diawal, tapi katanya hidup harus berjalan jadi marilah berpikir kedepan.. Di tempat ini.. Berawal dari cek tht lalu cek lagi dan terpasanglah selang di siang hari.. Malam semakin dingin hingga sulit tertidur sampailah perjalanan sunyi ke igd sejak jm3 pagi.. Beruntung, tidak-tidak.. Diberkati mungkin kata yang tepat.. Tak antri dan dapat masuk dengan mudah.. Jm7 pagi sudah mendapat ruangan nyaman di new bugenville 317.. Aku bahagia.. Jumat pagi terbaring disana, sabtu dan minggu, senin juga walaupun jm2 siang harus pulang kerumah.. Mengapa bisa?? Kan kondisi belum membaik, katanya "dirujuk ke dharmais, kami disini tak punya alatnya" tapi ayahku belum di biopsi.. Ku pasrahkan semesta, kupercayakan surat itu saja.. Esokpun tiba, ternyata dharmais tak mau menerima karena tak ada hasil biopsi disana.. Entah apa rasa mamaku saat itu.. Akhirnya kembali kesana bertemu dengan dr itu, tapi sayang karena pasiennya penuh, ka...

Memendam sesuatu memang tak enak, apalagi memendam kesal.. Seperti kesalku pagi yang seolah berlanjut tiap jamnya.. Seperti membawa magnet sehingga kekesalan berikutnya mengikuti.. Bagaimana menghilangkan kesalku diawal, aku tak mengerti.. Kubiarkan saja ia menghinggapiku, lalu ia datang membawa teman-temannya.. Malam ini puncaknya, aku tak dapat menahannya lagi.. Sedihnya kukeluarkan ia, dan menyakiti seorang jiwa, ibuku.. Maaf, maafkan aku ma.. Dan, layar yang pecah ini menjadi saksi.. Semesta, ajarku berdamai dengan kesalku sejak dari awal.. Karena menahan dan berpikir positif, lama-lama tak tertahan juga.. Aku, aku tahu aku salah.. "lo kek orang banyak pikiran" ucap sahabatku dua kali, di toko dan di pencok.. Am i look like that?? I ask myself and dunno why.. Sudahlah nes, selesaikan saja semua, satu-persatu dan biarkan semesta bekerja.. Ps: terima kasih order hari ini..

I can't help falling in love with you.. "why you eat lonely on the outside" "i just wanna feel the new experience" ** "you didn't like it?" "ya, i dislike it, so i give it for you" Everythings ok.. Until i said to myfriend "i wanna go to your country next year" Then i realize, you and her from the same country.. So i think it's our fate .. Ahaha.. Just let the universe to deserve it..

Do you ever feel happy and sad at the same time?? I do.. I was prepare my heart, 2 years to be ready to tell everything to my besties.. But, when the day come.. It's rainy like a Storm (just kidding) so we cannot meet as we promise.. I'm so sad, and i think universe didn't want it to happen.. So, i tell to my self, never share it to my besties.. I let my self to think, i'm brave enough, actually i'm broke inside.. I don't know, when i have the courage to tell them.. I'm waiting that moment.. And then my birthday comes.. When i met my besties, i talk to my self.. This is the day.. Share your secret to them.. But, one of my bestie was with her friends and her friends always be with us until late night.. Wher her friends leave us, it's about 7.30pm and i want a cozy place to share it, quite place.. But we didn't find it.. And she wanna go home, because it already night.. I think, "oohh universe, do you really want me to keep it to myself??, a...